I remember being in middle school. And I didn’t have many friends. The few that I did have, were misfits. The ones who painted their nails black, and wore all black, all the time. It’s safe to say that we weren’t the popular kids in school.

I had the same experience in my neighborhood. My friends were the throw aways, the black sheeps of the family, the misfits.

High school was no different for me. I was not the “cool kid” and was nowhere near the popular crowd. In fact, they treated me like a step child. They bullied me, mocked my clothes, and had all negative things to say about my hair. After graduation, a popular guy spoke to me when we bumped into each other at a mall. I was surprised to say the least. And since I am such a direct person, I said to him, “I’m surprised you’re speaking to me. I thought you didn’t like me”

Of course he was taken aback. He then told me the issue back in high school was the clothes that I wore. My thought was, at least he was honest. I’ve always known I was judged by the clothes that I wore, my sense of fashion, and how I spoke proper English. Some people thought I felt like I was “better than”. And in a sense, I was. I was ahead of my time. I blazed trails, I carried myself with grace. When I set trends, no one liked it until a celebrity did it. And I never got credit for it. Instead, I was chastised.

Same thing happened when I was in college. I was an outcast. Likewise at company’s I worked for. All because of my fashion being so forward. I remember walking, and my intuition told me that what I was wearing, my city wasn’t ready for. People starred at me yet admired what I had on. I was wearing white nail polish way before it became a trend.

Fast forward many years. I became a devout Christian. And I noticed how the pastors had a battier to them. Meaning, the only interacted with certain people in the church. At a closer look, those were the people who made $80k+ in their career. And that excluded me. There I was again, an outcast.

I then tried different religious sects. Baptist, Buddist, Muslim, etc. Even Roman Catholic. And again, I was an outcast. I did not fit in. I was, unseen.

It was the same atmosphere as the Christian church. The ones who made the most money in their jobs were the ones closest to the pastors. All I wanted to do was belong and not feel rejected or abandoned. And for one reason or another, I was always the black sheep.

So. I left the church and found the “spiritual community”. And the atmosphere was the same. People watching others and judging themselves against what they saw and feeling jealous. Gossiping, betrayal, and social climbing. Mental health was and is at a all time high. And master manipulation is at it’s finest. But, what struck me was a recent event. I had been in a astrology social group for about a year. The people say nice things about me. They invite me, but I’m not accepted. I’m kept out of the loop on purpose.

One day, I noticed how the people in the group were interacting with each other. They were speaking in codes and riddles since I was around. I knew there was something they didn’t want me to know, or share with me. Meanwhile, the two new comers had only been around two months. While I was there for a year. Again, I’m the black sheep.

Now that I know the basics of astrology, I decided to take a look at my natal chart. I wanted to know, why am I not fitting into groups. Turned out that the sign of Aquarius indicates that one is not meant to have friends. And to NOT be in groups or secret societies. In fact, Aquarius is supposed to create their own community, groups, and/or blaze their own trails.

Another thing I noticed was Neptune. That is the planet of invisibility, so to speak. Which explained why certain people did not SEE ME.

Even in public places, people don’t see me. They bump into me, walk into me, and it seems as though the presence of my physical body doesn’t exist. But guess who does “see me” with my Neptune placement? Drug addicts, users, abusers, master manipulators, witches, demons, Bipolar people, manic depressive people, pedophiles, and felons. The homeless, schizophrenic people, and the bottom of the barrel type of people.

Men who cheated on their wives and weirdos “see me”. The very types of people I would prefer to have nothing to do with. I mean, is it too large of a request to associate myself with normal people?

So, I took my natal chart to Astro cartography. I needed a deeper look into why…

The city I live in is a Neptune line for me. Which explained why the wrong type of people see me while I’m invisible to “normal people”. It explained why people walk into me as if I weren’t there at all.

There has been times when no one is on the side walk except for myself and one other person. I’d walk close to the building, or more inward on the pavement. And oddly, people would power walk to get closer to me, squeeze into a super small space and walk ahead of me. It made no sense at all. There was plenty of space for a person to talk and for whatever unconscious reason, they just HAVE to squeeze into a narrow space. Like, why?

There could be no one on the train but myself and one other person. So many free seats and the person would basically sit on my lap. Why? Did you not see me???

But when it’s a crowd, people would avoid me as if I were a plague! So weird..

Nevertheless, I encourage everyone to take a look into astrocartography. It will help you to understand why you experience the things you do in the city you live in. And also, take a look at your Neptune placement. This is where you’re not seen.

Take a look at your Aquarius placement. Somehow, you have to find that balance between not being part of a group, and showing up in groups. The trick with this placement is to learn the lesson of not becoming or being emotionally attached. Not even to “friends”. You have to be aquatinted with people and not be totally, wholly or completely transparent.

I’m not sure how this placement works when it comes to your biological kids and spouses. 🤷‍♂️

A quick tip: If Aquarius is in any of these houses, you’re really supposed to be detached!

3rd house through the 8th house, Midheaven, 10th-11th house. The third house is the house of friends, the eleventh house is the house of acquaintances.

xoxo

A Healthy Parent