Today is the last day of 2021. I usually sit back and think of all the things I learned about myself and others throughout the year. And… I felt depressed

I finally utilized an oppertunity to tell my gossipy mother about her seed of division. As I wrote in a previous blog, she wanted my son taken away from me, because my siblings was taken away from her. She blamed me for that. Which was a messed up thing for her to put that off on me. She was busy being a crackhead, and wasn’t taking care of her kids.

Nevertheless, when her evil plans didn’t work she planted seeds of division in my son’s head when he was a preteen. 13 years later and my son still doesn’t speak to me.

He has a lot of mental and emotional health issues. And from what I hear, he is now snorting cocaine. I did tell him to seek professional help. I doubt he will.

Anyway, one of my brothers is very similar to my son. Mental and emotional health issues, drug use, and don’t speak unless money is being spent on him. He holds a grudge but it only hurts him. No one else.

The way my son thinks of me and feels about me, is the same way my brother feels and thinks about our mother. Until she go to God for instructions on how to rectify the error of her ways, her relationship with her son will still be the same. And, I know that’ll never happen. Baby Boomers never take accountability for themselves,  the deflect, they don’t answer questions, and they sweep things under the rug as if nothing had ever happened.

She recently tried to plant a seed in my head. And I hate when she thinks I’m that naive teenager that she was able to mind f***.

My father is an alcoholic. And anytime he’s drinking, he looks for me. I gave him grace the same way I gave my crappy mother grace. But he ruined any chances of us being in communication when he felt jealous over me and his brother’s relationship.  When my uncle died, my father wouldn’t give me the funeral information.  And flipped things around on me and told me I never contacted him.

My mother kept saying to me, “Don’t cuss him out”. Planting seeds of division, once again. She never learned her lesson, or she just doesn’t give a f•••

My mother also plants seeds of division in her husband’s head. And he says the things she really wants to say to her kids. She allows him to get the backlash of the consequences. Meanwhile, she sits pretty. She doesn’t stop him because she wants him to say the type of things he says. And the price that she pays for that is his lack of respect for her AND her kids.

The core of a person never changes. They may stop doing certain things, or start doing certain things. But that core… it never changes.

That realization caused me to make a final decision once I make my profits from my investments.  She’s not getting s◇◇◇ and her raggedy husband won’t benefit from anything. Both of them, won’t get S◇◇◇

My son.. won’t get s***

My brother… won’t get s***

As a matter of fact, no one will know anything as long as I don’t tell them!

I’m not mentioning my engagement or marriage unless I’m in a position of, it’s the last minute and I should say something.

I learned a few things this year in 2021.

Pay Attention and think things through

* The females that don’t want friends will f*** anybody’s man

* Women that don’t have friends by the age of 25-ish and up, never wanted any to begin with

* People from social media are not friends

* Pride keeps people from asking and apologizing

* The only white people that can be trusted are the ones who rebel against their parents and grandparents

* The American government wants its citizens to be dependent on them, to control its citizens

* When You trust yourself to be a good judge of character, you don’t need to trust everyone

* Men don’t really want to be friends with women. They either want sex or marriage from that woman

* A man needs something to live for and something to lose

* Men don’t cheat on the woman he’s emotionally attached to

* When a man meets his dream woman, he steps up and stops playing games. All of his foolery is hidden cause he doesn’t want to risk losing her

* Pay attention to the types of questions that are asked, and hear what’s not asked. People aren’t stupid

* Ask the person why

* Never tell everything

* Kids can be a source of traumatic experiences

* Family is not everything

* Some people are scared of being wealthy

* Some people fear scarcity and won’t share information

* When someone doesn’t want to be bothered with you, quietly leave. Don’t make yourself look stupid by having a rejection temper tantrum

* The parents that treat their kids like crap are the parents that get respect from their kids

The End. Happy 2022