A lot is on my mind again and it’s different things at one time

I expected Sagittarius season to be calm, peaceful and family oriented. NOT!

It’s not even the holidays that has me feeling down in the dumps. It’s the revelation of how alone I really am.

I have a brother who only contacts me when he wants something. When I realized he is and has always been a disrespectful user, I began to yell him I cannot financially support him. And then he disappeared. Until he wants something.

If I called him he wouldn’t answer the phone nor call me back unless he wanted something. So I began to give him back that same energy. I only wish I would have “seen it” sooner. Because I would have made very different decisions.

Then there’s my mother. Focused on her husband, finances and happiness. That came after 30+ years of being single. I always thought she never had basic wife skills. I thought she was somehow cripple in the love department. And I discovered by watching her that she is not. She never taught any of her kids how to be in a relationship, who to choose, life skills, financial literacy, nothing. What she did teach us was what it feels like to be a abandoned.

What it feels like to be emotioanlly abused. What is feels like to not have a father. She taught us how not to be. And yet here we are.

For my own sanity, I give my mother grace.

Then… my alcoholic father calls me expecting me to accept him. My grandmother told me to tell him, not to call me drunk. She knew what she was talking about. The man doesn’t even know when my birthday is or how old I am! But then he says, “I’m your father”

As if I’m obligated to show him some respect. I don’t know what’s worse. An abusive mother or a deadbeat father! They both were unfit to have children!

She had kids to keep a man. He made kids he never wanted.

Where does this leave me emotionally?

And to top it all off, with the south node entering scorpio in a few days, I’m truly seeing who is supportive of me and who is around me just to take what they can get from me.

Now, I’m pretty decent when it comes to using astrology to predict market trends. I chart companies, Cryptocurrency, and stocks to find the jackpot. I share the information with people on my social media platforms. I simply asked for a review and no one, I mean NOBODY stepped up!

These are people that made 5 figures off of what I taught. People whose portfolio grew +30%. And nobody wanted to write me a review.

I’ve given tips on when to invest, when to pull out, what projects are jackpots. To the point where it’s millionaire status. And no one wanted to write me a review…

I decided, to take my ebook down. Because some of those Cryptocurrency’s will created multimillionaires after Bitcoin crashes. It’s not just any crypto, and not all crypto’s will survive the crash. This is wealth transfer information!

There’s another wealth transfer when Uranus enters Gemini. And I know which Cryptocurrency to purchase now. One of them has 10 zeros. One is currently a penny, and another gives Big Bitcoin energy! This Cryptocurrency will reach 6 figures..

And these dumb buttholes don’t even want to write a review.. I decided that I will no longer share a lot of information and to just look out for myself!

With all of the traumatic experiences that I have been through, my heart is still open for people.

Well, not any more. If anyone wants the information they have to pay me. Handsomely, or stay in the financial position that they’re in.

I’m going to take the time I need to release all of this pinned up anger and resentment. Focus on myself and what’s beneficial for me, and secure my bag!

The reality is, one hand does not wash the other. And I accept that. People better not have a problem with me doing the exact things that they do. It’ll be hell to pay.

xoxo

A Healthy Parent